This darkness keeps consuming me and I am so afraid it’s part of who I am. I can’t push through forever. I just can’t.
some days i feel kinda fine and other days i just wake up feeling so terribly numb and alone and desperate and worthless not knowing what to do cause eVeRyTHinG feels wrong and all places are dark and i just cannot handle being me any longer. the thought of having to exist in this body and in this world for one more minute and having to get through another day makes my body ache and my eyes fill up with water, needing to disappear or self-destruct. shaking hands and still not knowing what to do. this might be (part of) what’s wrong with me.
